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[14 Sep 2005|05:31am] |
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Alot has been happening recently.so here's basically everything
April 24, 2005 me and mark started dating, we were together all summer until July 24.We were in love.
He broke up with me and i was absolutely devestated.I wanted him back desperately, but all he would say is i just dont want you back, those words killed me. about 3 weeks later i met Ryan. I started liking him and the first time we hungout he asked me out. I knew i wasn't ready to be in another relationship, but Mark didn't want me back, i needed to get over it, so i thought i could prove to myself and to Mark i would be able to get over him. Me and Ryan were dating for three weeks and i broke it off. he told me he loved me right from the start,what was i supposed to do be like thanks?Although we both knew we weren't in love, it's impossible to love someone after three weeks.I asked him to the Sadie Hawkins dance, i baked him cupcakes, ext. Then i ended up breaking up with him that night. So i offically have no more date for Sadies. He gave me so much shit about how i broke his heart, when i knew he didnt love me, it was ridiculous.Mark know wants me back, but i don't want to be in a relationship with anyone right now
i can't take heartbreak. It's hard for me to let people get close to me, and anything close to perfection scares me.So basically i hate ahwatukee so much, i need to get out of this hell hole, scottsdale is where my heart it is. ♥
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[07 Jan 2005|10:50pm] |
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wow so much drama i dont even know what to do. we broke up. someones being really dumb, im not going to name any names caugh*chelsea*caugh. but yeah it's cool how we break up and then he's like well i want to hangout and he tries to act like we're cool again, he hurt my feelings...he didn't break my heart because he never had my heart to begin with.but yeah it's basically really stupid, and i wasn't upset. garrett = major love.and not to mention he's beautiful.
ex oh ex oh. <//3
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[25 Dec 2004|03:50pm] |
Post a memory of me and you.
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[12 Dec 2004|05:45pm] |
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DO YOU...
Think I'm cute:
Want to kiss me:
Want to cuddle with me:
Want to hang out with me:
Think I'm intelligent:
ARE WE...
Lovers material:
In a relationship:
Going to have kids:
AM I...
Your type:
Sexy:
Funny:
Cool:
Worth your time:
WOULD YOU...
Hangout with me:
Date me:
Be my boyfriend/girlfriend:
HAVE YOU EVER...
Thought about me:
Tought there might be an "us":
Thought about being with me:
Found yourself wanting a kiss from me:
Wished I was there:
ARE YOU...
Happy you know me:
You mad at me:
Thinking about me:
Going to hang out with me sometime:
Please comment..
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[08 Dec 2004|07:33pm] |
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Tell me...One secret.One criticism.One compliment.One love note.Lyrics to a song
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[07 Dec 2004|06:14pm] |
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Tell me what you think of me.
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[02 Dec 2004|08:55pm] |
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im so done with guys.it sucks because i like him but he lives so far away and it just kind of upset me when he was like by the time i see you again you probably like me...like acting like he wouldnt like me still, so i shouldnt like him? its times like these when i wish i never wouldve met him, because this always happens...i fall head over heels for something i cant have.
...since you've been gone i can breath for the first time i even fell for that stupid love song
how come id never hear you say "i just want to be with you" guess you never felt that way.
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[02 Dec 2004|08:06pm] |
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Post lyrics to a song.
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[30 Nov 2004|04:07pm] |
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post a story, a secret,a confession,a love,a fear.
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[28 Nov 2004|09:43pm] |
What Would You do if...
I cried:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I ran away from home:
I got dumped:
What Do You Think Of My...
Personality:
Eyes:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Friends:
Decisions:
Would
You...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
hold me in times of need:
Ditch me:
Use me:
please comment.
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[28 Nov 2004|04:17pm] |
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November 19-27= Best week of my life.Cant even begin to explain.
i hope he was just telling me that because he wants me to breakup with you...if its the truth then were over...youre unbelieveable.
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[18 Nov 2004|06:44pm] |
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1 more day until i get out of this hell hole. you cant even begin to imagine how relieved i am to just get away from everyone.ive just been feeling really depressed over everything this week.at least ive got you<33.when i found out he didnt like me anymore i really wasnt upset...a little bummed...but nothing to cry over, but it made me realize he was a jerk anyway and i know it wouldnt have worked out, i was just to nieve to realize who was right in front of me...the one person who has liked me all along...through everything...so i did alot of thinking last night...and we talked about it...so now we're offcially dating...he makes me really happy.the only one thing im worried about is...ive heard hes been with alot of girls...i hope he likes me for me...ive been through alot of shit lately and that would be the last thing i need...but i dont want to make a big deal about it so its staying in the back of my mind.i know he loves me.
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[15 Nov 2004|09:21pm] |
What Would You do if...
I cried:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I ran away from home:
I got dumped:
What Do You Think Of My...
Personality:
Eyes:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Friends:
Decisions:
Would
You...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
hold me in times of need:
Ditch me:
Use me:
please comment.
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[15 Nov 2004|04:10pm] |
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last weekend=entirely too much drama.church on sunday was basically the highlight of my weekend...it really got me thinking.it was about being content with what you have.i though about it and i realized i have everything i need. and everything else is just a neccesity. 4 more days till i get out of this hell hole.im staying at the nicest freaking hotel in miami...The Hyatt baby :):)i just hope that while im gone things wont change with me and him.
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[14 Nov 2004|04:50pm] |
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...for all this im better off without you.
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[13 Nov 2004|07:18pm] |
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Post a story, a secret, a confession, a fear,a memory of us, a love... anything. Please post anonymously and honestly.
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i miss him.
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[13 Nov 2004|08:42am] |
you dont even realize how youve hurt me.best friends....is no longer that.
...shot through the heart
and youre to blame.
...maybe it's not love, and just infatuation
constantly depressed
and hopelessly obsessed.
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[13 Nov 2004|12:16am] |
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Dear World,
I need to get this out...i still have feelings for him i tryed so fucking hard to look you in the eyes and hold back my tears...i hope youre happy and ill laugh when you look back on this and realize what i good fucking friend i was...and how you were so inconsiderate of my feelings.But who gives a shit about me anymore...FUCK ME.I've tried so fucking hard...some best friend you are.and to you...you think youre hot shit because a few pot heads asked you for youre number...youre really not that great get the fuck over it.i hope you both are happy.im falling back into deep depression.
sincerly,
nobody.
...you are the one i love
the one thing that i tried to hold on to...
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[11 Nov 2004|08:54pm] |
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im updating tonight because im not going to have time tomorrow.Tomorrow:getting picked up from school early and dying my hair and getting my nails done, then going over to Katies to get ready with her and Chelsea,then going to the lockin till 12:30 then were sleeping over at chelseas.then saturday im going shopping to get clothes for my cruise, then going to my cousins dance competiton...then who knows after that?Hopefully hanging out with andy or nathan?Sounds fullfilling eh?
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[11 Nov 2004|04:27pm] |
this entry is dedicated to johnny...johnny youre so f'ing hot i just want to lick you.
JOHNNY I F'ING LOVVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEEE YOUUUUUUUU BEAUTIFUL!!
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